Your use of JK confused me for a split second, Ya i wish.
Haha oh right. it is.
Sigh x 5.HAH she would! How does she know?
Hahahah oh ang. You should of showed her the beauty pic.
So she doesn't even know what he looks like?!? God we must complete her obsession
Damn she's good! She knows whats up. How did you even begin to explain the situation
Hahahah ang seriously, You can't fool her
Hmm. It probably wouldn't be all to difficult for her since she already figured out half the equation
Hahahahahahaha omg i just laughed out loud double l'd. THIS ONES CALLED WHALES AND DOLPHINS Anna: do you know every one of their songs or something? Lauren: *dirty look to kat* god she must think i'm such a freak.
Impressive right ? ;)
I'm not a stalker i swear.
I don't even know the lead singers name..or that the Teagan and Sara chick is actually named sara..
And that we look alike? Nahhh
OMG LAUREN i'm just here to have a good time okay?
It's just water...
Hahahaha embarssing..i forgot i wasn't in beaumont
i was ready to pick them up
Yeahhh we do. I love volleyball players AND skater boys. You know this.
Haha i meant given my recent history. Why do i really
Noooooooooooo
Balla and boy skinny? Negative
Check
Your right, i will attempt to tap that before high school ends.
I will conquer what no other female has
IT'll be a tough journey, thank you.

All i want is mas
I feel mixed up inside
I guess this is withdrawl because i want mas
Yo quiero mas
I want to help
Yet i say the wrong thing because i hate what she is doing to you
It is wrong because you care about her so much
And you want mas
Tu quieras mas
Yo veo a la izquierda, a la derecha
Todos you veo es mas mas mas
I want you
I want to be with you
I want to hang out with you
I want to talk to you
I want to joke with you
I want to walk with you
I want to cry with you
I want to help you
I want to be there for you
I want to give you everything
You quiero mas
Mas mas mas
Give me more
I want to be with you
All the time
Its insane
But I'm attached
I'm obsessive
This is withdrawl
Because all i want it more more more
Yo Quiero Mas

The look in your eyes
When you came here that night
Was like somebody stole your sole,
Broke your heart
The trance you were in made me crawl in my skin
I want to help you
I want you to open up
The spell can break
When you come around
And break the chains that are holding you back
I'll be around
When you come around
If it takes a day or a hundred years
Me and my heart will be right here
I know you are guarded
The look in your eyes
The tears threaten to spill over
Yet you look away and change it to me
I stay up at night to make sure you are alright
My porch light stays on for you
When you come around to your own good sense
When you break the chain of these events
Ill be around for when you come around
When you come around
Please girl open up to me
Don't tell me to wait 13 more years,
One sided trust never works
I feel like i know so much
But
You sit and tell me i know nothing
If i know nothing how can i say anything
That changes so much
But i don't want it to
The drinking the depression the fights
Is that really nothing?
Or
Are you just saying that to maintain your thought
That you never gave in, you never cried, you never told
This is what I'm here for
When you come around
I am the trust, the love, the never going to leave you
So please don't lie to me
And just be
The spell can be broken
When you come around to your old good sense
I will be waiting here to take you in
When you come around
Me and my heart will be right here
To pick you up when you come around.
Take all the time that you need, i will wait a hundred years
But don't hide from whats right
The winds may be blowing but these arms are hoping
When you come around to your old good self
When you break the chains
If it takes a day or a hundred years
Me and my heart will be right here
To pick you up when you come around.

I'm here for you.

I don't want my life to be defined by actions that are out of my control, but by how i react to them.

You would not believe your eyes if ten million lies filled the sky as i sleep
I'd like to make myself believe that I'm a good person
As i turn slowly back and forth
Its hard to say as I turn back and forth
Because i get a thousand hugs
As i backstab them all
A cyclone above my head
I'm hanging by a thread
I'd like to make myself believe that im better than this
As my world starts to crack
I become an insomniac
I'm far to tired to fall asleep
I hate goodbyes
But the more i do it the more i will have
I would like to hold my tongue
But i know to much about all of you
And now i burst
Im not as i seem
Not so innocent
Not so sweet
Not so kind
As you all like to believe
But not everything is as it seems
Id like to make myself believe
As the world turns slowly
My dreams of life are bursting at the seams.

maybe that's a case of my wishful thinking
i know something, i can see, i think
i feel much better when you two were fighting
ballet basterds
and after all we've been through
all i want is for you to feel me
before it kills me
kills me
how long
can i go on like this
wishing you'd hug me
reciprocate please
this isn't good, your making me nervous
and girl there is a lot that you miss
all i really want to feel is the love friends use
and after all we've been through this feeling it's not going to fade
and even if you leave
it will kill me
but
you hold my heart in your hand and not matter what happens to it now
i probably wont turn you down no matter how hard i try
i have been that friend
the friend of the best friends
no matter what
always the third wheel
one turns to me and it starts to shift
but the marina-whip is cracked and back they turn
and this feeling inside keeps building
and it might kill me if you leave me
for her.

if ever there was anytime
you needed me
don't hesitate to look to me
because
oh oh oh oho oh oh
I'm your friend, no matter what you do to me
ill look after you
after you
oh oh oh oh oh oh
be my friend
it's always have me but never hold
you can leave me now
and go to her
and i would still feel for you
ask anything of me and you will have


if i don't hear this now
i will surely break
don't hesitate or my hear will surely separate
be my friend and
hug
me
please
oh oh oh oh oh oh
be my friend

lost and insecure you found me
i found you broke and on the floor
we grow together
bones and souls
they heal
with life chasing us down
we take separate paths but
end up the same person
the same person
girl i love you
i am confused
the hate disappeared and here i stand behind you
together you walk ahead of me,
leaving a gap i can look through
I'm acknowledged
but with time, and try
it will close
so here i am now
lost and insecure
lying on the floor
are you going?

I'll tell one thing,
que masquerada,
you better listen up
life can be
deceiving
so grow up and take it
and if all these things
find their way to you
there's better ways to handle it
so get in the jeep and get fingered
because its always better when we are together
so don't fight with me
don't take your insecurities out on me
find yourself a new
a new
a new
man
not for me, not for the rest of us,
although it would be nice
So ill tell you one thing
you're better without him.

my mistakes
im losing your trust
piece by piece
it falls
i fall too
which way to go
passion calls my name
the pain calls my name
come on try a little
nothing is forever
there has to be something
better than in the middle
come on try a little
do i choose dirt or blood
the passion pulls at my cleft
the pain tingles in my wrists
a cold chill of memories past come over me
oh oh oh oh
be my baby
i'll look after you
whats wrong with me
think it through
its a mistake
im pulling it all together
but how do i fix the trust
my loose tongue
my loose will
my loose strength
do i lay low now
do i put on a show
my wrists are tingling i would apoligize ive done it too many times now can i fix it how?

hey there  friend, you got in an accident and we got close
its unbelievable how so soon i can care about you
that first night, with your scars
up your arms
down your legs
its really scary
your cast up to the top of your thigh
i can't believe this really happened

its been a month since then
we have gotten closer
talking more and more
but what about marina?
i dont get her, and yet your so close to her
i dont have a problem with marina
but she might have a problem with me
im not sure
just kind of confused

i feel i can talk to you about anything
i want to get closer to you
but
are you going to be just another friend who breaks my heart and leaves me?
im more mature
and this feels different from before
could it work?

im ready to take the chance, 
im ready to be there for you
im ready to be your shoulder to cry on
im here for you
i've been there since the accident
and i wont be leaving any time soon
were together now
you are my friend

hmmm..... my latest addiction is tea. i have been basically drinking it  all the time. I definately have a few fav's, peppermint, tisane, morocan pomegranite, and good old green tea. 

Anyone want to go out for a spot of tea?