maybe that's a case of my wishful thinking
i know something, i can see, i think
i feel much better when you two were fighting
ballet basterds
and after all we've been through
all i want is for you to feel me
before it kills me
kills me
how long
can i go on like this
wishing you'd hug me
reciprocate please
this isn't good, your making me nervous
and girl there is a lot that you miss
all i really want to feel is the love friends use
and after all we've been through this feeling it's not going to fade
and even if you leave
it will kill me
but
you hold my heart in your hand and not matter what happens to it now
i probably wont turn you down no matter how hard i try
i have been that friend
the friend of the best friends
no matter what
always the third wheel
one turns to me and it starts to shift
but the marina-whip is cracked and back they turn
and this feeling inside keeps building
and it might kill me if you leave me
for her.

if ever there was anytime
you needed me
don't hesitate to look to me
because
oh oh oh oho oh oh
I'm your friend, no matter what you do to me
ill look after you
after you
oh oh oh oh oh oh
be my friend
it's always have me but never hold
you can leave me now
and go to her
and i would still feel for you
ask anything of me and you will have


if i don't hear this now
i will surely break
don't hesitate or my hear will surely separate
be my friend and
hug
me
please
oh oh oh oh oh oh
be my friend

lost and insecure you found me
i found you broke and on the floor
we grow together
bones and souls
they heal
with life chasing us down
we take separate paths but
end up the same person
the same person
girl i love you
i am confused
the hate disappeared and here i stand behind you
together you walk ahead of me,
leaving a gap i can look through
I'm acknowledged
but with time, and try
it will close
so here i am now
lost and insecure
lying on the floor
are you going?

I'll tell one thing,
que masquerada,
you better listen up
life can be
deceiving
so grow up and take it
and if all these things
find their way to you
there's better ways to handle it
so get in the jeep and get fingered
because its always better when we are together
so don't fight with me
don't take your insecurities out on me
find yourself a new
a new
a new
man
not for me, not for the rest of us,
although it would be nice
So ill tell you one thing
you're better without him.

my mistakes
im losing your trust
piece by piece
it falls
i fall too
which way to go
passion calls my name
the pain calls my name
come on try a little
nothing is forever
there has to be something
better than in the middle
come on try a little
do i choose dirt or blood
the passion pulls at my cleft
the pain tingles in my wrists
a cold chill of memories past come over me
oh oh oh oh
be my baby
i'll look after you
whats wrong with me
think it through
its a mistake
im pulling it all together
but how do i fix the trust
my loose tongue
my loose will
my loose strength
do i lay low now
do i put on a show
my wrists are tingling i would apoligize ive done it too many times now can i fix it how?

hey there  friend, you got in an accident and we got close
its unbelievable how so soon i can care about you
that first night, with your scars
up your arms
down your legs
its really scary
your cast up to the top of your thigh
i can't believe this really happened

its been a month since then
we have gotten closer
talking more and more
but what about marina?
i dont get her, and yet your so close to her
i dont have a problem with marina
but she might have a problem with me
im not sure
just kind of confused

i feel i can talk to you about anything
i want to get closer to you
but
are you going to be just another friend who breaks my heart and leaves me?
im more mature
and this feels different from before
could it work?

im ready to take the chance, 
im ready to be there for you
im ready to be your shoulder to cry on
im here for you
i've been there since the accident
and i wont be leaving any time soon
were together now
you are my friend

hmmm..... my latest addiction is tea. i have been basically drinking it  all the time. I definately have a few fav's, peppermint, tisane, morocan pomegranite, and good old green tea. 

Anyone want to go out for a spot of tea?